Life of a Dancer

I love my random journal entries

It's November. The month of thanks, falling leaves, cool weather. I love it. Fall is my favorite season. For sure. Sooo, i'm in Dallas at the moment, visiting my dying great grandmother. It's awful to see her in so much pain, lying on the hospital bed in nothing but a mere thin sheet of fabric, tubes stuck in different places of her body, monitors beeping all around, the smell of sickness surrounding her...teasing her. I hate it. Honestly, i would much rather her pass away and be happier with God than be here with death staring her in the face as she suffers. Yah...i hate it

So, Kort and I are still together. We're gooooood :) I like him :) lol. Yah. Dance is still happening. I love it of course. It just gets frusterating every now and then. I can only take so much of 18 hours a week. Plus, i have a job now...artistic stitches (embroidery) and school of course, and on top of that, all this college/scholarship stuff. I'm not complaining really, because i love my life. I'm just explaining :)

Well, i'm off to do another reading assignment for Kreig. Last time i updated, i was doing the same thing. lol. Ironic. But cha. Metamorphosis is calling out my name. I seriously had a dream about cockaroaches (0r however the heck you spell it) last night. Freakin creeped me out. I think i woke up crying. lol. Mmmmk. Well i'm outta here.

peace

Long awaited journal entries have to be the best, because everyone yearns to know what is going on in your life, and when an entry finally shows up, it's like a huge celebration. lol.

Happy Belated New Years everybody!My new years sucked. Normally my entire family of about 50 million is here at my lakehouse to celebrate the joyous occasion with me, but it was only my my paranoid mother, my wonderful father, my piromaniac brother, and my gangsta cousin. mhmm. it was amazing. :)

Im reading A Brave New World for Kreig......and im actually am enjoying it. IF you get the chance, pick it up and educate yourserlf about the atrociousness of this cruel world.

Later~~~

Dang. This break has been quite interesting. I cant feel my legs from Thursday when i had to dance in that parade downtown. lol. But i got a close up on television! SO thats awesome. gah....i feel so fat. I've been pigging out on so much food.

Oh yah, and i think im gonna go see Rent tomorrow. I wanna see it soooo badd. I was waiting for it to come out. And i haven't even seen it yet. so yah.

History suxxxxxx soo bad! ah. i hate it.
yep. well, im done. laterrr

This week was good. Kinda. I dunno. I guess the only good thing about it was the fact that my parents went on a very long vacation, where they had no possible way to communicate with me because they were on a cruise. So yah. But our pastors left at church, and that depresses me. And school is just sucking. I NEED that thanksgiving break. Oh yah........for any body who cares, we're having show off's of all of our dances at my studio on Thursday at like 5. And also, we are performing in the Thanksgiving Parade downtown next Nov. 24 if you wanna watch on tv. I'm not sure of the time. I think it's at like 9 ish AND, we'll be performing at the Rockets Halftime show on Dec. 3. I forgot who they're playing that day. but yah. So if you want a discount on tickets, let me know before Nov. 19.

well, i have to go write a wonderful paper for Krieg. later

~much luv

This week was unbelievably horrible. i mean....i seriously didn't know weeks could be so bad. i dunno what to say to describe how i feel. i hate being a hormonal teenager. it sux so bad. even my dad is worried about me. he probably thinks im gonna kill myslef or something. i dunno. sigh~. i just want go to sleep and not wake up for a long time. that would be amazing if i woke up and all my problems were gone. but yah. living in a fantasy doesn't help any/.

my rents are gonna be gone for 6 days on a cruize and they cant call. yes! lol. jes kiddin. im gonna miss my daddy. :(

to try out for the upcoming play or not? i dunno. thats another choice i gotta make. but i dont even feel like im apart of that "world" anymore. i dont think anyone really even wants me to be in it. so why try to be a part of something where im not accepted? i dunno.

sleep sounds good. goodnight

Delayed update? I'd have to say so. It's been kinda hard to fit typing up boring events in my life with all kinds of crap going on. same ol same ol. homework= antichrist. i believe i've established this. dance= .......i dunno what it equals yet. fun and tiring i guess i could say. guyz= dramn drama drama drama drama drama drama. i swear, i should turn lezbian. but that whould be so gross, and totally against christianity. not that i've been showing it much lately. which could explain my shift in attitude towards my parents and friends. hmmmmm........ i should work on that. yah... anyways, i left a comment of my freinds my space that basically describes life. particulary about life with guyz

LIFE WITH GUYZ= DRAMA, DRAMA, and more and more DRAMA

LIFE WITHOUT GUYZ= a shit load of lezbians, but a lot less drama.

we should just get rid of all those Y chromosomes.

why am i so angry you ask? well, let me use a little fallacy that i obtained from Mrs Kreig

_POST HOC ERGO PROPTER - after this, therefore because of this

: after i fell for for stephen's little lies and games......i got totally screwed over and now i am in the stage where i hate guyz in general.
yep, that about sums it up.

well, i have luverly chem AP homework i am going to tackle, but probably not succeed in doing so becuase this crap is freakin crazzzzyy. so yah. laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

well, school sux! yep. i swear i have never had lower grades than i do this year. my parents are going to be thrilled! yep.

hmm. boyz......yah i dunno. im talkin to this one cutie.........but yah. i dunno where it's going. he's takin to long. lol.

dance.....is absolutley awesome. well, it was tonight. i enjoyed it very much. i wasn't enjoying it for like the past three weeks because i was getting so frusterated because i couldn't get the frekain dances. but yah. im getting better.....which def. accounts for my improving attitude. :)

well, after a shit load of studiying i still managed to completly bomb my physics test. which is unbelievable, because i read way to much into the questions, making them 10x harder than they actually were. but anyways, im off to correct that nice little test, do some freakin algebra homework, study for a huge spanish test, and try to comprehend at least a bit of stoichiometry for a humungo chem test on wed.
wish me luck~~~

So, hurricane Rita was interesting. Im really not interested nor looking forward to hearing people constantly saying .."i told you so..." Fortunatley, we were lucky enough that the hurricane suddenly decided to change it's direction, because after observing the result's (of the side we would've have gotten)of South West Lousianna, Houston and it's surroundig areas...inculding us!, would've have been in devastaion. and yes...that's an understatement. The people that left were smart enough to see the damage this thing could do. but whatever.....

And alhtough we left to livingston to get away from the hurricane.....it still managed to nicely give us the strongest winds (117 pmh). yep...and oh yes...a tornado too. i absolutley enjoyed the heat and not having air-conditioning for three days. but anywayyssss, i read harry potter (numero 6) and i loved it. Though, it wasnt that thrilling towards the end because i already knew the ending. ....wonder how that happened. but i still cried and laughed and succeeded at finishing it in two days. that is surely a record for me, yip-yip. welllll, im out. Will and Grace should be coming on in approximately 6 minutes. later

our football team rocks. oh yes...they do.

school sux, im tired. and i have a cool idea on my mind that i will inform everyone about after i've sorted it out. :)

So it's been a while. sorry about that. My life has never had so mush stress i swear. With all the hard core classes im taking, being involved in so much crap, and dance every night for like 3 hours, i knoooo i'm gonna die this year. but it's all good......I'm surprised i even got to get on the computer tonight. this will prolly be the only and LAST time i will get on it during the school year. Im really hoping thats just an exaggeration. Well, for those that didn't know, i have a new friend. :) She's white and furry and cuddly and her name is SAssy! hehe. She's my new persian kitten. And she is sooo drop dead gorgeous. lol. I luv her. Well, yah. im out cuz i really really really really need sleep.

Ps: who else is enjoying kreigs class? seriously....i like all the discussion and stuff.

Today was long. basically consisting of errands. HEB, highschool, walmart, highschool, middleschool...and more. i can't remember at the moment. gosh...what time is it? lol. anyways, Lyndi lou is over and we're making necklaces! i think i have enough to last me a life time. haha. yah....

Im am very very tired. so......i think there is a solution to this problem. SLEEP!

wow. today, some dude friends came over and we were listening to my system or whatever (that sounds weird. like im concieted. haha. whatev), and ummm, my freakin subs stopped working! i was like what the crap?! sooo, i didn't wanna tell my dad because he would've totally flipped out, so i told him i had dance at 5 (i really had it at 6 30), and i went to car toys to get them to look at it. Luckily we had a warranty, so they fixed it for free! it was like a blown fuse or something. the dude said they put in a bad one to begin with, so thats why it blew. soooo, yah. i'm glad it's all better now. lol.

School registration tomorrow. Oh how quickly evallll school is sneaking up. gah...

wowww, guyz really suck. ha!

Dukes of Hazard rocked. Though i feel like an idiot because i didn't know the movie orginated from a show. haha. yah.....thnx for imforming me holly. I got an excessive amount of new shoes. I should be set for the whole year considering i almost bought out the store (as natalie put it). yah...and i freakin got two new puppies! they are soo adorable. Pictures shall be uploaded as soon as possible.

Thanx for talkin about it with me nat. I'll start to heal sooner or later. I prefer sooner.....

aww, avril lavigne got punk'd. it sucked

Love you guyz! mwah

~me

ps: The Andy Milinokis (however the crap you spell it) show....has to be the most immature, distasteful, confusing show i've everrrr seen. "I have a pancake on my face...i put bologna in my shirt??!" wtf?

Hey! Well, today was better. I didn't think about him. hehe. But OM FREAKIN GOSH. it was soooo hott outside today. Today all the foozball playa has scrimmages, so we athletic trainers had to be there to serve wata and fix the babies boo boos. aww. But umm yah. We were there from 8- 1:30. ahh. it was so hott. i cant express it in writing (typing in this case). lol.
Oh yah! hahahaha. I got this e-mail from Tammy, and it is soooo funny! hahaha. read some of the stuff on it. It's like funny stuff to do at the office (and some not at the office)

ONE-POINT DARE
1. Run one lap around the office at top speed.

2. Ignore the first five people who say 'good morning' to you.

3. Phone someone in the office you barely know, leave your name and say,
"Just called to say I can't talk right now. Bye."

4. To signal the end of a conversation, clamp your hands over your ears
and
grimace.

5. When someone hands you a piece of paper, finger it, and whisper
huskily,
"Mmmmmmm, that feels soooooo good!"

6. Leave your zipper open for one hour. If anyone points it out, say,
"Sorry, I really prefer it this way".

7. Walk sideways to the photocopier.

8. While riding in an elevator, gasp dramatically every time the doors
open.

THREE-POINT DARES
1. Say to your boss, "I like your style" and shoot him with
double-barreled
fingers.

2. Babble incoherently at a fellow employee then ask, "Did you get all
that, I don't want to have to repeat it."

3. Page yourself over the intercom (do not disguise your voice).

5. Shout random numbers while someone is counting.

FIVE-POINT DARES

1. At the end of a meeting, suggest that, for once, it would be nice to
conclude with the singing of the national anthem (extra points if you
actually launch into it yourself).

2. Walk into a very busy person's office and while they watch you with
growing irritation, turn the light switch on/off 10 times.

3. For an hour, refer to everyone you speak to as "Bob".

4 . Announce to everyone in a meeting that you "really have to go do a
number two".

5. After every sentence, say 'Mon' in a really bad Jamaican accent. As
in:
"The report's on your desk, Mon." Keep this up for one hour.
6. While an office mate is out, move their chair into the elevator.

7. In a meeting or crowded situation, slap your forehead repeatedly and
mutter, "Shut up, damn it, all of you just shut up!"

8. At lunchtime, get down on your knees and announce, "As God is my
witness, I'll never go hungry again!"

9. In a colleague's diary, write in 10am: "See how I look in tights."

1 0. Carry your keyboard over to your colleague and ask, "You wanna
trade?"

11. Repeat the following conversation 10 times to the same person: "Do
you
hear that?" "What?" "Never mind, it's gone now."

12. Come to work in army fatigues and when asked why, say, "I can't talk
about it."

13. Posing as a maitre d', call a colleague and tell him he's won a
lunch
for four at a local restaurant. Let him go.

1 0. Carry your keyboard over to your colleague and ask, "You wanna
trade?"

11. Repeat the following conversation 10 times to the same person: "Do
you
hear that?" "What?" "Never mind, it's gone now."

12. Come to work in army fatigues and when asked why, say, "I can't talk
about it."

13. Posing as a maitre d', call a colleague and tell him he's won a
lunch
for four at a local restaurant. Let him go.

19. Arrange toy figures on the table to represent each meeting attendee
and
move them according to the movements of their real-life counterparts.



And if that wasn't enough for you...How to keep a healthy level of
insanity:


1. At lunchtime, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a
hairdryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.

2 Tell your children over dinner: "Due to the economy, we are going to
have to let one of you go."

3. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries
with
that.

4. Put your trash can on your desk and label it "IN".

5. Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten
over
his or her caffeine addictions, switch to expresso.

6. Finish all your sentences with "In accordance with the prophecy..."

7. Dont use any punctuation

8. As often as possible, skip rather than walk.

9 . Ask people what sex they are. Laugh hysterically after they answer.

1 0. Specify that your drive-through order is "to go."

11. Sing along at the opera.

12. Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme. &nb! sp;

1 3. Put mosquito netting around your work area. Play a tape of jungle
sounds all day.

14. Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party
because you're not in the mood.

15. Have your co-workers address you by your wrestling name, Rock
Hard.

16. When the money comes out of the ATM, scream "I Won! I Won! 3rd time
this week!!!"

17. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot yelling,
"Run for your lives, they're loose!"

hahahaha. omg. im still laughing. hahah

Today was "Meet the Falcons". a.k.a.....meet the retarted football playas. lol. j/p i luv my boyz. Soo, it was freakin HOTTTTTTT outside today. OMG. i have never sweat so bad. eew. lol. but it was all fun. i went and got my eyebrows waxed today too. so.....i feel better. haha.

It's kinda scary...cuz i cant seem to get over him or let him go. but do i really even want to? and if i do....will i ever be able to? ..........how do some people not die from from a broken heart?

Natalie's birthday party totally rocked!! especially when i did my spider man move in the air while justin and john were struggling to keep me from falling. haha. yah. oOH. and hide and go seek was awesome. i never feakin get tagged! and i did tonight. how gay is that. you guzy totally suck. lol. Being sick sucked tho. but i stuck it through til then end! ha

sad part:.....

I really dont know what to do anymore. nobody has to comment to this by the way. im jes letting some of it out right now. I wanna cry.....but i cant. i cant seem to let it out. i think im holding on to everything, because if I break down...i'll face the truth. something i dont wanna face. but im starting to. i thought he was the one i'd last with for a long time. i thought. but he loves her and she loves him. gosh. it hurts soooo bad. getting screwed over. you hear people talk about it all the time.....but you never really understand the feeling until you experience it yourself. you feel like you have nothing left and that the world is falling apart right beneath your feet......but you cant move because you're afraid. afraid of so many things. I still cant seem to face it. I keep thinking there is something there. There has to be!! He woudln't just ditch me..... but my heart is whispering the truth. My denial is is just too loud so i cant hear it. I still dunno. i dont know anything right now. my friends can tell somethings wrong....but im sick...........SICK of bothering them with it. i can tell they're not interested. so why the hell bother. it feels like i have no one right now. no one...

Well i just got an e-mail from Mrs. brooks and she is totally starting a live journal chain! yes. i luv her. lol. And i love u too mrs. tammy and EVERYONE. there's to many to name. lol
well, i got my license yesterday, and i just got grounded from it today. how convienent! yah....my dad said i didn't call him before going somewhere, so thats a violation of the rules, which results in harsh penalties. gah. i hate that they have so much authority over me! i just want to be freakin independent. Oh yah, and get this. My mom thinks i look at porn!! wtf?!! she said she saw the sites on my computer or something......and she thinks i look at it. i haven't talked to her yet, but i heard it from a "birdie". my bro. im so ticked that she would think that. freakin A. and i know who's fault it is for even having porn websites on here. Justin P!! i am so mad at you right now. ah
And today is Natalie Gonsior's and Natalie Garza's happy, awesome, day of birth!. so dont forget to tell em!! well im off. summer homework suxxxx. ( i pretty sure i have said that excessively this month)

~me

So today was eventful. I got my computer fixed and it took freakin 6 hours! yah. and it's still not finished. And i downloaded soooo much music today. "Thrice", "Emery", "Mae" (all their songs) and i still have more. Thanx smalls for your wonderful variety of music on your o-so-special computer. :) yesterday's party at his house was funnn too. I got to jump on a trampaline (something that needed to be done). And you band guyz are funny and awesome! I luv ya! haha. yah, and sorry nat an cj about me and marcus' rock throwing. haha. yahhhh

well, u never called me. soo, dont tell me we dont get to hang out enough, because you obviously dont try hard enough. whatever.... (to whom it may concern. u know who u are)

~love me

wheew. It's been a while. Well, i tried to get a my space and it worked but i cant liek make it cool yet and stuff. I'm working on it. And i totally got into trouble with the truck today. gahh. And im really tired. yah.

I love the drama teacher. she rox! we're gonna have a very very good year.

New fav band: daphne loves derby!!

~morgan

Gosh. I hate summer homework. I have had it on my mind forever and i need to get it over with. gah. I dunno. I think im about to go finish my scrap book (something i need to do) because......i jes wanna. lol. Notice, i am avoiding the doing of my evaaal homework. mmhhmm. And i went to this leadership workshop this past week and it was awesome!! we're gonna have an awesome school year next year! i'll make sure of it :)

Ight``` later

Morgan